Post by nikki2point0 on Nov 4, 2015 0:30:25 GMT -5
It has been a really long time since I've been on this site, and I'm not quite sure if anybody from "back in the day" will read this but I thought I would write this to see if anything does happen.
So hey, it's Nicole or Nikki or whatever you wanna call me (A lot of friends call me Martie now due to my last name). I can't believe it's been ten years since I joined this site and met so many wonderful people, and a few rotten apples. From what I can remember when first joining the forum is that I was a 12/13 year old looking for a way to unleash my creativity and to escape and through the advice of a friend, I came here.
Now, I'm about to turn 23, I've graduated university and gained thousands in student loan debt, and I recently got engaged in July to my puzzle piece that has stuck by me for the last seven years. However, I have somewhat lost my mojo to write and to think creatively for the last five/six years. It doesn't help that for four years I wrote academic papers (I did take a creative writing class but it's not fun when you're forced to think creatively within a certain time frame for a grade), and now with having a full time job (which I fucking hate haha) and a house to take care of, as well as fur-babies to feed and play with, I've slowly lost the ambition to sit down and type something out and think outside of the box again, so I came here.
Looking at the inspiration and the amounts of ideas 12 year old Nicole had through writing stories makes me wonder why I stopped. Maybe it was because I got too busy, or I had no encouragement from others like what I had on this site, or that I didn't need to escape in my writing anymore because I wasn't in a situation that left me lost or unwanted in real life. Middle school sucked terribly for me, and so did high school but I was able to handle myself more appropriately (Elmosgirl, if you're reading this--and I highly doubt it--but I'm sorry for telling you to fuck your mom, however there was no reason to be a salty bitch, just saying...) and I had a better support system where I had friends that actually did care about me rather than tossing me to the wolves.
Maybe that's why I didn't need the forum or a way to escape things back in high school, but now, as an adult, looking back at the stories I wrote gives me inspiration to make them better and to improve the richness and authenticity in them because I know how what it's like to fall in love at 14/15 and have your heart broken and to go through a psychological abusive relationship, only to find your soulmate and to finally be happy. (Side note: work on run on sentences! Jesus Christ, you managed not to do it through uni, y u do naow?!)
Anyways, I came back to be nostalgic and to see if there's anybody else out there in this void that still likes to visit.
If anybody sees this that remembers me, follow me on Twitter at @tismartie.
Kind of feeling like Tom Hanks and you, Liam Aiken Web Forum, are my Wilson.
So hey, it's Nicole or Nikki or whatever you wanna call me (A lot of friends call me Martie now due to my last name). I can't believe it's been ten years since I joined this site and met so many wonderful people, and a few rotten apples. From what I can remember when first joining the forum is that I was a 12/13 year old looking for a way to unleash my creativity and to escape and through the advice of a friend, I came here.
Now, I'm about to turn 23, I've graduated university and gained thousands in student loan debt, and I recently got engaged in July to my puzzle piece that has stuck by me for the last seven years. However, I have somewhat lost my mojo to write and to think creatively for the last five/six years. It doesn't help that for four years I wrote academic papers (I did take a creative writing class but it's not fun when you're forced to think creatively within a certain time frame for a grade), and now with having a full time job (which I fucking hate haha) and a house to take care of, as well as fur-babies to feed and play with, I've slowly lost the ambition to sit down and type something out and think outside of the box again, so I came here.
Looking at the inspiration and the amounts of ideas 12 year old Nicole had through writing stories makes me wonder why I stopped. Maybe it was because I got too busy, or I had no encouragement from others like what I had on this site, or that I didn't need to escape in my writing anymore because I wasn't in a situation that left me lost or unwanted in real life. Middle school sucked terribly for me, and so did high school but I was able to handle myself more appropriately (Elmosgirl, if you're reading this--and I highly doubt it--but I'm sorry for telling you to fuck your mom, however there was no reason to be a salty bitch, just saying...) and I had a better support system where I had friends that actually did care about me rather than tossing me to the wolves.
Maybe that's why I didn't need the forum or a way to escape things back in high school, but now, as an adult, looking back at the stories I wrote gives me inspiration to make them better and to improve the richness and authenticity in them because I know how what it's like to fall in love at 14/15 and have your heart broken and to go through a psychological abusive relationship, only to find your soulmate and to finally be happy. (Side note: work on run on sentences! Jesus Christ, you managed not to do it through uni, y u do naow?!)
Anyways, I came back to be nostalgic and to see if there's anybody else out there in this void that still likes to visit.
If anybody sees this that remembers me, follow me on Twitter at @tismartie.
Kind of feeling like Tom Hanks and you, Liam Aiken Web Forum, are my Wilson.