Post by azballerina on Feb 15, 2005 1:49:58 GMT -5
Let's start last night. I asked this guy to be my Valentine. He said no. I asked why. He told me that my sister already asked him. It was okay though, he's just a friend, I don't particularly like him in that way, but I thought it'd be fun to ask him. Well, then he suggested that I ask this guy that I like (not Josh, a different person that I've known for a really long time...) and he goes to my sisters school, and so I came up with a plot. I could ask Julie, my sister, to ask just a general group of people if they knew anyone to be my Valentine, and that I didn't have one and that she wanted to get me one. Then she just happened to suggest that guy, and I totally thought it work, 'cos he's really outgoing, he would say yes. But, then I found out from Julie that when I told Leisle (his sister) that I liked him, she had told her other sister and then her other sister had told him. So, my sister thought that it would be a bad idea if she did that. Then, she, being the unconsiderate person that she usually is when the topic is "guys", said, "Well, I know he likes Edna, not you." Well, I knew he didn't like me like that, but couldn't she say that a bit nicer? I felt like crap, I guess it really hit me that he really doesn't think of me like that. I had already known it, but it really wasn't... apparent to me, really. Maybe I'm just stupid. Cried myself to sleep, because I hadn't seen him in a while, and that I missed him, but also because I felt stupid and that I knew it was true.
This morning. Woke up to my stupid little brother singing a song I think he composed himself. It was made up of 1 word, repeated a whole bunch. I'm sure you can guess what it was, it was "WAKEY WAKEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" So, I woke up in a bad mood. To make matters worse, I had forgotten that our power went out for a few minutes last night, and I hadn't set my clock. Yeah, I woke up about 30 minutes later than I should have. I rushed around, completely forgetting that it was Valentines, and I had thought about the night before and couldn't remember for the life of me why I felt so horrible. I forgot all the gifts that I had bought for my friends, and got to school, arriving in first period pre-algebra 3 seconds before the tardy bell. My teacher told me that he would let it slide this time, but next time I'm late, he's going to give me a detention (I already have 2 unexcused tardies, if I get one more, I get 2 days detention). Oh yeah, and today we had some standardized testing and highschool placement tests...
Until lunch it was fine, a normal day. Then, lunch time... my friend confessed her love for this one guy and was freaking out about it, and then another friend had turned down another friend and so he was all sad, and I kept trying to talk to someone and kept being shunned away, because no one really wanted to talk. See, when I'm upset, I like to talk about it. (Like I'm doing now!) Well, so I kind of felt bad that I couldn't even talk to my friends 'cos they were all having delemmas of their own. Well, then the rest of the day went by, but slowly and the teachers assigned a lot of homework, and so that's exactly what I'm negecleting right now.
Well, 4:30 was ballet. I thought it was gonna be good, ballet class usually is, it's my reason to get out of the house, and when I'm dancing, it seems as though all my troubles have left me. I feel light as air... I totally forget about the events previously. Well, today we were having a serious barre stretch and I couldn't participate because I'd had a sore neck all day, and it hurt too bad, so I had to just stand there, doing few streches, so I pretty much had about 30 minutes more to review the crappyness of today. Then, by the end of class, I was getting fed up with one of the girls because, she's 9 years old, one of the older girls, and she kept making the teacher, Annie, mad and it slowed down class, so we went over time, and then the next class was mad at us. Then, after class I usually see the people who are in the next class, and I have a friend in that class and today she wasn't there, so I had no one to really talk to during the next 10 minutes while I waited for my dad to pick me up and while she put on her pointe shoes. Well... so that gave me another 10 minutes to think about last night and how much I miss my crush... and what Julie had said to me, so unhelpingful (I just invented a word).
Then, when I got home, I had to do all my chores and my neck still hurt from I don't know what, but I started getting a headache, and that wasn't helping my willingness to vacuum. My brother was being a retard again, and making my dad mad, so he was mad at everyone (When dad ain't happy, ain't no one happy). Then, for dinner, we had pasta premerveira (I can't spell) and even just the smells of that makes me feel sick, so I didn't eat dinner. Then, we had FHE (Family Home Evening... family night... it sucks, it's so boring!) And tonight, it dragged on and on, and then my brother, who goes to college came home and so I was talking to him and didn't realize how late it was getting, and I still had a whole bunch of homework to do. I have a book report due in about 7 1/2 hours, and I don't have my sheet of requirements, so as I type, I'm just winging it. I hope 300 words is long enough... I'm not re-writing it. Well, then, my brother has been driving me INSANE tonight, and I feel like CRAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry, I had to get that out of my system.
This morning. Woke up to my stupid little brother singing a song I think he composed himself. It was made up of 1 word, repeated a whole bunch. I'm sure you can guess what it was, it was "WAKEY WAKEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" So, I woke up in a bad mood. To make matters worse, I had forgotten that our power went out for a few minutes last night, and I hadn't set my clock. Yeah, I woke up about 30 minutes later than I should have. I rushed around, completely forgetting that it was Valentines, and I had thought about the night before and couldn't remember for the life of me why I felt so horrible. I forgot all the gifts that I had bought for my friends, and got to school, arriving in first period pre-algebra 3 seconds before the tardy bell. My teacher told me that he would let it slide this time, but next time I'm late, he's going to give me a detention (I already have 2 unexcused tardies, if I get one more, I get 2 days detention). Oh yeah, and today we had some standardized testing and highschool placement tests...
Until lunch it was fine, a normal day. Then, lunch time... my friend confessed her love for this one guy and was freaking out about it, and then another friend had turned down another friend and so he was all sad, and I kept trying to talk to someone and kept being shunned away, because no one really wanted to talk. See, when I'm upset, I like to talk about it. (Like I'm doing now!) Well, so I kind of felt bad that I couldn't even talk to my friends 'cos they were all having delemmas of their own. Well, then the rest of the day went by, but slowly and the teachers assigned a lot of homework, and so that's exactly what I'm negecleting right now.
Well, 4:30 was ballet. I thought it was gonna be good, ballet class usually is, it's my reason to get out of the house, and when I'm dancing, it seems as though all my troubles have left me. I feel light as air... I totally forget about the events previously. Well, today we were having a serious barre stretch and I couldn't participate because I'd had a sore neck all day, and it hurt too bad, so I had to just stand there, doing few streches, so I pretty much had about 30 minutes more to review the crappyness of today. Then, by the end of class, I was getting fed up with one of the girls because, she's 9 years old, one of the older girls, and she kept making the teacher, Annie, mad and it slowed down class, so we went over time, and then the next class was mad at us. Then, after class I usually see the people who are in the next class, and I have a friend in that class and today she wasn't there, so I had no one to really talk to during the next 10 minutes while I waited for my dad to pick me up and while she put on her pointe shoes. Well... so that gave me another 10 minutes to think about last night and how much I miss my crush... and what Julie had said to me, so unhelpingful (I just invented a word).
Then, when I got home, I had to do all my chores and my neck still hurt from I don't know what, but I started getting a headache, and that wasn't helping my willingness to vacuum. My brother was being a retard again, and making my dad mad, so he was mad at everyone (When dad ain't happy, ain't no one happy). Then, for dinner, we had pasta premerveira (I can't spell) and even just the smells of that makes me feel sick, so I didn't eat dinner. Then, we had FHE (Family Home Evening... family night... it sucks, it's so boring!) And tonight, it dragged on and on, and then my brother, who goes to college came home and so I was talking to him and didn't realize how late it was getting, and I still had a whole bunch of homework to do. I have a book report due in about 7 1/2 hours, and I don't have my sheet of requirements, so as I type, I'm just winging it. I hope 300 words is long enough... I'm not re-writing it. Well, then, my brother has been driving me INSANE tonight, and I feel like CRAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry, I had to get that out of my system.